is unnecessary for a teenage girl.
it's all about your familia & your boys & girls, ydig?
Julius Nisperos
Erica Almonte
Louisa Gavino
Austin AC Teodoro
Tina Nguyen
Ashley Romero
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MACBETH YOUR A KILLER.
monday, june twentyone, two thousand and ten
So a lot has happened lately, Im hardly even keeping up with my schedule :)
I'm a little to lazy to write down what I did for the past few days. Uhm well today, after my second period exams - history, I bussed home to change quickly into short and bussed to terms @ square to meet up with julius. He bought me my poutine from new york fries & a drink too :) YUM!
"EW man, this looks so gross, holy motha." - A
"Looks like a POOOOO-tine." - J
"Yumm Yumm Yumm Yumm" - J
"DON't say that" - A
"why?" - J
"Because you sound like my father" - A
"HAHAH, YumYUmYUmYUMUMMYUMUMYUMMMM" - J
"EFF YOU!" - A
"HAHHAHAHA" - J
Then he & I went to check out his tie that would match my dress from the "occassion". Afterwards, we loafted for a bit with all my complaints based on the dress I bought on the weekend -.-"
Went to check out Marlas & this other store, But i didnt want to spend about fifty bucks on another dress lol. So Julius & I walked to central library & studied for a bit & had legit realtalks. Kinda fell asleep but he kept bugging me LOl & I was kinda afraid he'd ditch me tooby myself. Oh & This creepy brown guy was like checking me out BIG TIME and kept walking by us at all times, which got my the shivers.
By 145PM He & I walked backed to Square and bought his food again OH & I FINALLY BOUGHT NEW CLIPS. Kinda felt bad because Julius was "actually" gonna buy me my hairties & clips that Rui would steal & break for unnecessary reasons, (back in the past)/ So instead I bought my six new clips from my own money, in which I sadly broke my 10 dollar bill ): Kinda sad. I have to start saving up again. Kinda failed on that LOL.
Later he & I jsut loafted and talked blahblahblah. Both went to so many shortcuts kinda fascinatting & interesting how Julius knows all these secret shortcuts LOL thAT I NEVER KNEW EXISTED! LOL :)
By 230 both went to terms and waited for our bus. Eventually it came & I went to davids to meet up with Angelica to pick up our sibs.
couple days ago ...
Yesturday went to central with julius & my mom & sister. Studied for a good bit. Before that I went to church, went to cemetary in brampton, then Eastgate then home to get my books & meet up with julius.
Saturday19 -Picked up my mom at GBC then went to Eatons center to look for a present for my daddy for fathers day. Went to forever21 to look for my dress. Glady I found a pretty one but my mom said no since it was like a club kinda dress. So i took the dress my mom preferred obvs . I look like a legit princess .. All I need is a crown & Im all good LOL :) Later at night, went to Congee QUEEN in scarbs/tdot to eat with my Tita & Uncle. Ate a lot. Went to Baskin Robins to get some ice cream for dessert :) Yummmmmy. Went to brampton back to my tita & uncles house. Watched DAYBREAKERS - Uhhhh mazing movie, cant lie. Its like the reverse universe with vampires :)
Saturday18 - FIRST EXAM - ART. Shooot me. Got to school by 830AM JUST IN TIME. Stupid traffic due to the constructions THAT was supposed to be set ON JUNE 30TH DAMMIT. Oh yeahuh And i screm like a mofckn girl when I spotted a tiny ass spider ont he window INSIDE THE CAR BESIDE ME LMFAO. I took my seatbelt off, and screaaamed to loud LOL.
"omg, SPIDER." - Allyson
"where?" - Tito Rhoel
"on the window inside the car!" - Allyson
"Kill it." - Tito Rhoel
"YOUR CRAZY!" - Allyson
"KILL IT , or even better EAT IT. Taste crunchy" - TIto Rhoel
"Yeahuh you would know" - Allyson
* Takes seat belt off *
"Its getting closer" - Allyson
"OPEN the window then" - Tito
"..fine" - Allyson
* OPENS WINDOW & SPIDER goes down on its web spinning from its back *
"AHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHRY@*RB@N(CM)#$O@&$@^#(@OI(AHHHHHHHHHH!" - Allyson
"GET OFF IM DRVIING!" - Tito Rhoel
* I take my black flats & SQUISH it on the damn handle *
"DAMN, how the hell am i gonna get out of the car when the spider is squished on the handle of the door? -.-'" - Allyson
**Tito Rhoel, Angelica LAUGHS**
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ALL WE GOTTA DO IS LOVE
tuesday, june fifteen, two thousand and ten
PAST
FINITO.
- Art History Test
- Art Celebrity Portrait
- English Machbeth Final and last Test
- English Seminar
- Careers C.A.T
WHATS LEFT.
- Art (FISH Distortion/Enlargment Drawing)
- EXAMS for all four classes.
PRESENT
449PM currently resting on my bed and watching Y&R - Soap Opera ftw. Really tired & I still got to go to square to buy a kettle LOLOLOL. Oh man. Im craving for some Manchu Wok too. Anyways , I pretty much got this whole week and next week scheduled LOL. Its good Im making myself busy with my selected fews yknow, too get my mind off of the "unnecessary people" who fucked up. (bwahaaa)
(Couple hrs later)
Got home from shopiing at Heartland. Went to la Vie En Rose with Mommy, then went to Walmart. Bought a couple of small stuff & some furnitures for the condo. Saw Elliott, Petar, Michael & Luis lol. Talked to them for abit then dipped to catch up with my mom. Ouuuu got a pair of PJs from walmart - Cant lie the pjs there are kinda "cute" LOL considering the fact that I HAVENT shopped @ Walmart for clothes in what? 6 years? LOL. Loving the Snoopy tank & Short Shorts - Woooo. Anyways, after shopping and looking around @ Walmart, my fam & I went to eat at Swiss Chalet on Highway 10. Yummmmy food, 1/3 rack of BBQ Ribs - along with frenchfries/chicken soup/Quarter Dark Chicken Legs/And a half of a Dinner Roll Bread - OH & 2 glasses of Pepsi. Holymotha, I swear I couldn't breathe ^ Kinda felt like vomiting, no lie :/ Anyways got home .. And extrememly disappointment with Celtics. BUN YOU LAKERSS. I owe Cyril a bag of homemade cookies & my Tito 20 pieces of nuggets from Mcd's. Sall Good, Celtics is bringing it back this thursday (Y).
&7 More to go .
FUTURE
Tomorrow/Wednesday16 - Central to study with Julius
Thursday17 - Planning on going for 3rd period only (maybe)
Friday18 - EXAM 1 {ART}
Saturday19 - George Brown College, Vaughen, Milton
Sunday20 - Central with Julius
Monday21 - EXAM 2 {HISTORY} & CENTRAL with Julius
Tuesday22 - EXAM 3 {ENGLISH} & GOETZ with Ashley, Nelly & Louisa
Wednesday23 - EXAM 4 {CAREERS}
Thursday24 - Flying to Phoenix, Arizona
Friday25 - Phoenix, Arizona for Mum's Graduation :)
Saturday26 - Flying back to Canada
Tuesday29 - Baby Sister's Graduation Dance & Honours!
Ps: Last Night <3
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sunday, june 13, two thousand and ten
LETS GO BOSTON .
- Cyril owe my homemade cookies. Woooo.
So since last night I was talking to "cutes" about whatever is b/w us, he was pretty much deep - cant lie. I didn't know how to respond to all his deep stuff. Had Tina advising me too LOL while she was with her booting. She was actually so down to pick me up from my base with Tyler and reach her house since her rents were outa the country LOL :) Oh well, I didnt want to take that risk considering the fact that it was past midnight.
Slept by 230AM just thinking about "cutes" :) And what he said lol. Oh man, he even wanted me linking him too, but I couldn't since I had to wake up at 6am in the morning for my dentist apt for cleaning. Damn..
So today, I woke up at 730AM and had to shower so that took me 15 mins - quickshower ftw. Then got ready and dipped my base 805Am reached my dentist apt, but really early. So I fell asleep in the car then, until 9o0AM. Dentist apt then, AFTERWARDs went to pmall, My dad basically wants me to get a MINI COOPER newest model LOL . I dont want it . I want a BMW all black rims, NO LOW RIDER, all black everything(8) AHAH :) Well he said he'll think about it soo yes :)
( write more later )
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the end - of all the memories we shared.
saturday, june tweleve, two thousand and ten
Yesturday, went to dollerama at sqaure one with my mom to buy some bristol boards for my careers presentation on tuesday; While paying at the counter I saw Hannah at the counter aswell but AS a cashier lady LOL. She prety much has two jobs, holy Too much stress :/ After sq, my fam & I went to costco to buy some food, then afterwards went to Dixie Park to eat & buy some movies for ten bucks. :)
the end - of all the memories we shared. I guess I can get used to it •
love & rockets,
allysonnicole.
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wednesday, june nine, two thousand and ten
Saturday+
• Picked up Mom from George Brown College in Tdot
• Missed out on Liezls BBQ with the selected fews (Bummer)
Sunday+
• Eatons Center & Forever XXII for Anjelica's Debut :)
• Demetris with Parents, sister and Tita Jeanette & Uncle Arnel
• Brampton to watch DECENT 2 with tita/tito & parents & sister
• Tito gave us the new seround system set that was worth bout 2 grand && he didn't even open it LOL .
• My "cutes" birthday ♥
Monday+
• St. David of Wales for Volunteering hours with Christine Innes & Angelica >:)
• 6 Minutes with "Cutes"
Tuesday+
• History FINAL & LAST TEST
• "Attempt" to talk to whatshisface.
• SKIPPED volunteering hrs at SDOW & Reached Timmies with Erica, Christine Grant & Christine Innes >:)
• Julius house with Marlon, Erin, Pamela, Cyril, Erica, Hannah, RJ- I FLOPPED
Today (Wednesday) is such a depressing day. Rain Rain PLEASE go away - jeez.
Art Class we had a supply, so Louisa Narmeen and I just loafted, kinda. I fell asleep for a bit until I remembred that I had to finish my Essay Outline for English. Narmeen was doing her TEST REVIEW for Religion & Louisa as usual, was finishing her Portrait lol. Anyways, We got out of class 10 minutes early. Chilled with Kamil at my locker. History was lame, Hoping to get out of class early for Com Tech for Cinythia & Julius lol. Not today though, because nobody is completly done their videos bleh. English was boring, we handed in our essays, in which I went to bed at 130am since I had to re-do my entire essay from scratch and I showered really late too, oh man. I need more sleep. Anyways in english we listened to MACBETH on the tape - manage to finish everything except the last scene (since Ms.Bural is saving it for tomorrow). LUNCH was a piss off. Careers was nerve-racking, since its the day Aline & I have to present our mock interviews. Kinda messed up at one small portion of it but nobody noticied and neither did Aline LOL SO im hoping Ms.Kajda didnt too? Lets hope on that.
on my mind
"Closure is what I need. Now that I figured out the main reason why this all happened, I want to know the real 'truth' behind all this, the reason for my tears, the reason for the pain I have to go everyday and the reason for the ache in my heart. Im done with everything for good/ And this time Im one hundred percent sure. But when we manage to work this out, it never happens. Funny, how someone or something interupts us, or even When you change the subject and avoid on the issue. I don't see how you can avoid and pretend like nothing happened.I tried to do what you do and "pretend" but ... I can not. I need closure because you've been trying so hard to get my attention for weeks. You pms like a girl more than I do? Kinda weird. Im doing you a huge favour and letting "this" whatever you call it, to go. Your holding onto and never seem to agree with me. You know that neither both of us will come to an agreement, You know that. So why, bother going through all this when you can just say that simply word, a "yes" - And move on with our own lives without neither of us in it?. Like I said, "It's either me or her". We know what you decided and you stood by your decision. Like I will ever agree with your decision, I told you "im done". And i meant it this time. Before I kept hanging on and trying my best & giving my all to get you back in my arms and in my life, you slowly drifted away each and every day & left the shit that you did for me to clean up (yknow what im saying). I cleaned up that mess of yours, and you moved on with your life.
Unanswered Questions flowing in my head, the "what ifs" & the "worries" killed me for months. But I manage to get back on my feet and move on. Right when Im moving on, you come back and try your best to build that relationship again with me? Honestly, you think Im going to participate in that again? Its like an on-going rollercoaster that wouldn't stop. Im sick and tired riding this, because we come upon plenty and plenty of disagreemnts and not to mention more arguing & kussing with our selected fews.
Please Please, just forget about everything and move on with your life, Like i have with mine. Like I said, theres no more turning back and fixing the cracks and gaps.
% That warm love feeling you granted for me is forever lost in the lies youve slowly told me ....
I'm Sorry for ever falling for you and hoping you were different than the other fellahs. Im sorry for ever trusting and wishing you will change in the beginning of the year. I'm sorry for ever crying and missing you each and every night. At least up until this day, Im not apologizing for "trying" to see the good in you.
love & rockets,
allyson-nicole♥
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... I used to be your "cure" & you used to be my "drug" That i Can't get nuff of.
friday, june four, two thousand and ten
Almost a week since i last blogged. Gotta blame it on school. less than 2 weeks before school ends. EXAMS coming up, wrapping up all our courses with tests, quizzes, cpts/cats. Which gives us stress & nervous-ness. Holy .
Ouuu & It`s JUNE'baby. Gotta live it up, because summer is JUST around the corner.
Anyways back on topic :) So basically, A lot has happened within the past few days.
Yesturday I attended BEAST with Tina, Fatima, Katrina, Meryl, Pamela, Sean and his 2 friends. The musical was pretty uhh-mazing. Cant even lie. It was way to legit to even criticize. They wrapped up the musical with a kiss with the 2 main characters, it was way to cute (perfect ending) ♥ Had my dad picked me up at 945pm, went home and showered and took a rest. Unexpected Phonecall - had me all teared up and couldn't sleep till 200am. Didn't even have time to watch the FINALS for basketball againest celtics & lakers.
Wednesday (2Days Ago) - Rained so heavily, and worst day to wear a kilt and my new grey keds. Louisa & I missioned to McD's close by our houses, since LOUISA didn't wanna go on the one @ Eglington & Creditview 8-) lol . Whatever. We managed to catch the 26E and got off 2 stops from my house to mcdonalds. She bought me my combo food. Kinda love her off (nohomo) ♥ Yummmy, Double cheeseburger combo . Oh & she even bought my sister some takeout food THOUGH she was at her friends and I ate her Chicken Snack Wrap w. Ranch . Triple the Yummy-ness.♥ Then eventually we dipped mcD's by 400pm. Had her wait for me to take the 26W since I was hella scared because these 2 boys were in their car waiting for us and shit. AND Louisa & I RAN LMFAO.
MAIN REASON why we reached Mcd'S was beecause I had to have realtalks. I was so confused with all this "sad-ness" & this "COLD-vibe" with "him". I didnt know what to do, whether to say Im not interested & have him heartbroken. He was the only guy I ever had to break his heart. ): ): ):
AS FOR TODAY, I barely said a thing. Thinking about a lot- as usual. Can't get the thought from "last night" eqauls Paaain and more pain, along with sheding buckets of tears.
" You know I never meant this to happen. But it has. And we can't go back to the past and change it ... What you did as left a permanent scar in my heart - in Which i can not forgive you "
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MACBETH YOUR A KILLER.
monday, june twentyone, two thousand and ten
So a lot has happened lately, Im hardly even keeping up with my schedule :)
I'm a little to lazy to write down what I did for the past few days. Uhm well today, after my second period exams - history, I bussed home to change quickly into short and bussed to terms @ square to meet up with julius. He bought me my poutine from new york fries & a drink too :) YUM!
"EW man, this looks so gross, holy motha." - A
"Looks like a POOOOO-tine." - J
"Yumm Yumm Yumm Yumm" - J
"DON't say that" - A
"why?" - J
"Because you sound like my father" - A
"HAHAH, YumYUmYUmYUMUMMYUMUMYUMMMM" - J
"EFF YOU!" - A
"HAHHAHAHA" - J
Then he & I went to check out his tie that would match my dress from the "occassion". Afterwards, we loafted for a bit with all my complaints based on the dress I bought on the weekend -.-"
Went to check out Marlas & this other store, But i didnt want to spend about fifty bucks on another dress lol. So Julius & I walked to central library & studied for a bit & had legit realtalks. Kinda fell asleep but he kept bugging me LOl & I was kinda afraid he'd ditch me tooby myself. Oh & This creepy brown guy was like checking me out BIG TIME and kept walking by us at all times, which got my the shivers.
By 145PM He & I walked backed to Square and bought his food again OH & I FINALLY BOUGHT NEW CLIPS. Kinda felt bad because Julius was "actually" gonna buy me my hairties & clips that Rui would steal & break for unnecessary reasons, (back in the past)/ So instead I bought my six new clips from my own money, in which I sadly broke my 10 dollar bill ): Kinda sad. I have to start saving up again. Kinda failed on that LOL.
Later he & I jsut loafted and talked blahblahblah. Both went to so many shortcuts kinda fascinatting & interesting how Julius knows all these secret shortcuts LOL thAT I NEVER KNEW EXISTED! LOL :)
By 230 both went to terms and waited for our bus. Eventually it came & I went to davids to meet up with Angelica to pick up our sibs.
couple days ago ...
Yesturday went to central with julius & my mom & sister. Studied for a good bit. Before that I went to church, went to cemetary in brampton, then Eastgate then home to get my books & meet up with julius.
Saturday19 -Picked up my mom at GBC then went to Eatons center to look for a present for my daddy for fathers day. Went to forever21 to look for my dress. Glady I found a pretty one but my mom said no since it was like a club kinda dress. So i took the dress my mom preferred obvs . I look like a legit princess .. All I need is a crown & Im all good LOL :) Later at night, went to Congee QUEEN in scarbs/tdot to eat with my Tita & Uncle. Ate a lot. Went to Baskin Robins to get some ice cream for dessert :) Yummmmmy. Went to brampton back to my tita & uncles house. Watched DAYBREAKERS - Uhhhh mazing movie, cant lie. Its like the reverse universe with vampires :)
Saturday18 - FIRST EXAM - ART. Shooot me. Got to school by 830AM JUST IN TIME. Stupid traffic due to the constructions THAT was supposed to be set ON JUNE 30TH DAMMIT. Oh yeahuh And i screm like a mofckn girl when I spotted a tiny ass spider ont he window INSIDE THE CAR BESIDE ME LMFAO. I took my seatbelt off, and screaaamed to loud LOL.
"omg, SPIDER." - Allyson
"where?" - Tito Rhoel
"on the window inside the car!" - Allyson
"Kill it." - Tito Rhoel
"YOUR CRAZY!" - Allyson
"KILL IT , or even better EAT IT. Taste crunchy" - TIto Rhoel
"Yeahuh you would know" - Allyson
* Takes seat belt off *
"Its getting closer" - Allyson
"OPEN the window then" - Tito
"..fine" - Allyson
* OPENS WINDOW & SPIDER goes down on its web spinning from its back *
"AHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHRY@*RB@N(CM)#$O@&$@^#(@OI(AHHHHHHHHHH!" - Allyson
"GET OFF IM DRVIING!" - Tito Rhoel
* I take my black flats & SQUISH it on the damn handle *
"DAMN, how the hell am i gonna get out of the car when the spider is squished on the handle of the door? -.-'" - Allyson
**Tito Rhoel, Angelica LAUGHS**
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ALL WE GOTTA DO IS LOVE
tuesday, june fifteen, two thousand and ten
PAST
FINITO.
- Art History Test
- Art Celebrity Portrait
- English Machbeth Final and last Test
- English Seminar
- Careers C.A.T
WHATS LEFT.
- Art (FISH Distortion/Enlargment Drawing)
- EXAMS for all four classes.
PRESENT
449PM currently resting on my bed and watching Y&R - Soap Opera ftw. Really tired & I still got to go to square to buy a kettle LOLOLOL. Oh man. Im craving for some Manchu Wok too. Anyways , I pretty much got this whole week and next week scheduled LOL. Its good Im making myself busy with my selected fews yknow, too get my mind off of the "unnecessary people" who fucked up. (bwahaaa)
(Couple hrs later)
Got home from shopiing at Heartland. Went to la Vie En Rose with Mommy, then went to Walmart. Bought a couple of small stuff & some furnitures for the condo. Saw Elliott, Petar, Michael & Luis lol. Talked to them for abit then dipped to catch up with my mom. Ouuuu got a pair of PJs from walmart - Cant lie the pjs there are kinda "cute" LOL considering the fact that I HAVENT shopped @ Walmart for clothes in what? 6 years? LOL. Loving the Snoopy tank & Short Shorts - Woooo. Anyways, after shopping and looking around @ Walmart, my fam & I went to eat at Swiss Chalet on Highway 10. Yummmmy food, 1/3 rack of BBQ Ribs - along with frenchfries/chicken soup/Quarter Dark Chicken Legs/And a half of a Dinner Roll Bread - OH & 2 glasses of Pepsi. Holymotha, I swear I couldn't breathe ^ Kinda felt like vomiting, no lie :/ Anyways got home .. And extrememly disappointment with Celtics. BUN YOU LAKERSS. I owe Cyril a bag of homemade cookies & my Tito 20 pieces of nuggets from Mcd's. Sall Good, Celtics is bringing it back this thursday (Y).
&7 More to go .
FUTURE
Tomorrow/Wednesday16 - Central to study with Julius
Thursday17 - Planning on going for 3rd period only (maybe)
Friday18 - EXAM 1 {ART}
Saturday19 - George Brown College, Vaughen, Milton
Sunday20 - Central with Julius
Monday21 - EXAM 2 {HISTORY} & CENTRAL with Julius
Tuesday22 - EXAM 3 {ENGLISH} & GOETZ with Ashley, Nelly & Louisa
Wednesday23 - EXAM 4 {CAREERS}
Thursday24 - Flying to Phoenix, Arizona
Friday25 - Phoenix, Arizona for Mum's Graduation :)
Saturday26 - Flying back to Canada
Tuesday29 - Baby Sister's Graduation Dance & Honours!
Ps: Last Night <3
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sunday, june 13, two thousand and ten
LETS GO BOSTON .
- Cyril owe my homemade cookies. Woooo.
So since last night I was talking to "cutes" about whatever is b/w us, he was pretty much deep - cant lie. I didn't know how to respond to all his deep stuff. Had Tina advising me too LOL while she was with her booting. She was actually so down to pick me up from my base with Tyler and reach her house since her rents were outa the country LOL :) Oh well, I didnt want to take that risk considering the fact that it was past midnight.
Slept by 230AM just thinking about "cutes" :) And what he said lol. Oh man, he even wanted me linking him too, but I couldn't since I had to wake up at 6am in the morning for my dentist apt for cleaning. Damn..
So today, I woke up at 730AM and had to shower so that took me 15 mins - quickshower ftw. Then got ready and dipped my base 805Am reached my dentist apt, but really early. So I fell asleep in the car then, until 9o0AM. Dentist apt then, AFTERWARDs went to pmall, My dad basically wants me to get a MINI COOPER newest model LOL . I dont want it . I want a BMW all black rims, NO LOW RIDER, all black everything(8) AHAH :) Well he said he'll think about it soo yes :)
( write more later )
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the end - of all the memories we shared.
saturday, june tweleve, two thousand and ten
Yesturday, went to dollerama at sqaure one with my mom to buy some bristol boards for my careers presentation on tuesday; While paying at the counter I saw Hannah at the counter aswell but AS a cashier lady LOL. She prety much has two jobs, holy Too much stress :/ After sq, my fam & I went to costco to buy some food, then afterwards went to Dixie Park to eat & buy some movies for ten bucks. :)
the end - of all the memories we shared. I guess I can get used to it •
love & rockets,
allysonnicole.
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wednesday, june nine, two thousand and ten
Saturday+
• Picked up Mom from George Brown College in Tdot
• Missed out on Liezls BBQ with the selected fews (Bummer)
Sunday+
• Eatons Center & Forever XXII for Anjelica's Debut :)
• Demetris with Parents, sister and Tita Jeanette & Uncle Arnel
• Brampton to watch DECENT 2 with tita/tito & parents & sister
• Tito gave us the new seround system set that was worth bout 2 grand && he didn't even open it LOL .
• My "cutes" birthday ♥
Monday+
• St. David of Wales for Volunteering hours with Christine Innes & Angelica >:)
• 6 Minutes with "Cutes"
Tuesday+
• History FINAL & LAST TEST
• "Attempt" to talk to whatshisface.
• SKIPPED volunteering hrs at SDOW & Reached Timmies with Erica, Christine Grant & Christine Innes >:)
• Julius house with Marlon, Erin, Pamela, Cyril, Erica, Hannah, RJ- I FLOPPED
Today (Wednesday) is such a depressing day. Rain Rain PLEASE go away - jeez.
Art Class we had a supply, so Louisa Narmeen and I just loafted, kinda. I fell asleep for a bit until I remembred that I had to finish my Essay Outline for English. Narmeen was doing her TEST REVIEW for Religion & Louisa as usual, was finishing her Portrait lol. Anyways, We got out of class 10 minutes early. Chilled with Kamil at my locker. History was lame, Hoping to get out of class early for Com Tech for Cinythia & Julius lol. Not today though, because nobody is completly done their videos bleh. English was boring, we handed in our essays, in which I went to bed at 130am since I had to re-do my entire essay from scratch and I showered really late too, oh man. I need more sleep. Anyways in english we listened to MACBETH on the tape - manage to finish everything except the last scene (since Ms.Bural is saving it for tomorrow). LUNCH was a piss off. Careers was nerve-racking, since its the day Aline & I have to present our mock interviews. Kinda messed up at one small portion of it but nobody noticied and neither did Aline LOL SO im hoping Ms.Kajda didnt too? Lets hope on that.
on my mind
"Closure is what I need. Now that I figured out the main reason why this all happened, I want to know the real 'truth' behind all this, the reason for my tears, the reason for the pain I have to go everyday and the reason for the ache in my heart. Im done with everything for good/ And this time Im one hundred percent sure. But when we manage to work this out, it never happens. Funny, how someone or something interupts us, or even When you change the subject and avoid on the issue. I don't see how you can avoid and pretend like nothing happened.I tried to do what you do and "pretend" but ... I can not. I need closure because you've been trying so hard to get my attention for weeks. You pms like a girl more than I do? Kinda weird. Im doing you a huge favour and letting "this" whatever you call it, to go. Your holding onto and never seem to agree with me. You know that neither both of us will come to an agreement, You know that. So why, bother going through all this when you can just say that simply word, a "yes" - And move on with our own lives without neither of us in it?. Like I said, "It's either me or her". We know what you decided and you stood by your decision. Like I will ever agree with your decision, I told you "im done". And i meant it this time. Before I kept hanging on and trying my best & giving my all to get you back in my arms and in my life, you slowly drifted away each and every day & left the shit that you did for me to clean up (yknow what im saying). I cleaned up that mess of yours, and you moved on with your life.
Unanswered Questions flowing in my head, the "what ifs" & the "worries" killed me for months. But I manage to get back on my feet and move on. Right when Im moving on, you come back and try your best to build that relationship again with me? Honestly, you think Im going to participate in that again? Its like an on-going rollercoaster that wouldn't stop. Im sick and tired riding this, because we come upon plenty and plenty of disagreemnts and not to mention more arguing & kussing with our selected fews.
Please Please, just forget about everything and move on with your life, Like i have with mine. Like I said, theres no more turning back and fixing the cracks and gaps.
% That warm love feeling you granted for me is forever lost in the lies youve slowly told me ....
I'm Sorry for ever falling for you and hoping you were different than the other fellahs. Im sorry for ever trusting and wishing you will change in the beginning of the year. I'm sorry for ever crying and missing you each and every night. At least up until this day, Im not apologizing for "trying" to see the good in you.
love & rockets,
allyson-nicole♥
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... I used to be your "cure" & you used to be my "drug" That i Can't get nuff of.
friday, june four, two thousand and ten
Almost a week since i last blogged. Gotta blame it on school. less than 2 weeks before school ends. EXAMS coming up, wrapping up all our courses with tests, quizzes, cpts/cats. Which gives us stress & nervous-ness. Holy .
Ouuu & It`s JUNE'baby. Gotta live it up, because summer is JUST around the corner.
Anyways back on topic :) So basically, A lot has happened within the past few days.
Yesturday I attended BEAST with Tina, Fatima, Katrina, Meryl, Pamela, Sean and his 2 friends. The musical was pretty uhh-mazing. Cant even lie. It was way to legit to even criticize. They wrapped up the musical with a kiss with the 2 main characters, it was way to cute (perfect ending) ♥ Had my dad picked me up at 945pm, went home and showered and took a rest. Unexpected Phonecall - had me all teared up and couldn't sleep till 200am. Didn't even have time to watch the FINALS for basketball againest celtics & lakers.
Wednesday (2Days Ago) - Rained so heavily, and worst day to wear a kilt and my new grey keds. Louisa & I missioned to McD's close by our houses, since LOUISA didn't wanna go on the one @ Eglington & Creditview 8-) lol . Whatever. We managed to catch the 26E and got off 2 stops from my house to mcdonalds. She bought me my combo food. Kinda love her off (nohomo) ♥ Yummmy, Double cheeseburger combo . Oh & she even bought my sister some takeout food THOUGH she was at her friends and I ate her Chicken Snack Wrap w. Ranch . Triple the Yummy-ness.♥ Then eventually we dipped mcD's by 400pm. Had her wait for me to take the 26W since I was hella scared because these 2 boys were in their car waiting for us and shit. AND Louisa & I RAN LMFAO.
MAIN REASON why we reached Mcd'S was beecause I had to have realtalks. I was so confused with all this "sad-ness" & this "COLD-vibe" with "him". I didnt know what to do, whether to say Im not interested & have him heartbroken. He was the only guy I ever had to break his heart. ): ): ):
AS FOR TODAY, I barely said a thing. Thinking about a lot- as usual. Can't get the thought from "last night" eqauls Paaain and more pain, along with sheding buckets of tears.
" You know I never meant this to happen. But it has. And we can't go back to the past and change it ... What you did as left a permanent scar in my heart - in Which i can not forgive you "
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O5: Happy '16th' Birthday to Moi (:
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14: Binanogoun Family Reunion!
24: Sleepover at Erks' House with the Ladies
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My familia and my selected fews stands by me through thick and thin. NinetyNine.FIVE% focused in school, you can say that im a hardworker or nerd :)
My trust is l i m i t e d due to all the lies ive been told. I'm trustworthy, simple and understanding. Still unsatisfied with his decision/choice - though im slowly
recovering and moving on. I smile solo now - still learning. I thank GOD for everything, he's my hero. Through every mistake ive been through, ive slowly learned from them
and moved on with my life. BIG UPS to all my haters ♥
lifenotes:
•learn how to smile .. again
•move on
•stay focused at all times
•don't let "him" be in-control of your life again
•stay in touch with selected fews♥
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