is unnecessary for a teenage girl.
it's all about your familia & your boys & girls, ydig?
Julius Nisperos
Erica Almonte
Louisa Gavino
Austin AC Teodoro
Tina Nguyen
Ashley Romero
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Im stuck in the middle with you
Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete.
Until now, im still stuck in the middle with you.
My heart is burning with fire.
My mind is telling me to move on
But, my heart says i shouldnt.
I got my friends telling me your useless
I blame myself for falling for you,
We said we had each other, unconditional love
But that was just your way of making me happy - i guess
I was being played all along
You said once we're together, we'll be happier than ever
But that was a lie
You had your ex get in the way of you & me being together
You allowed her be in-control over you
Shes nothing, shes not worth it
Everyone keeps telling you that, but nothing gets through you head
I just hope you know what you got & what youve lost
Everytime i go to bed i think about you
Every morning, i find myself crying over you
With all the stuff we did & shared over the summer
I guess, maybe, i was your rebound girl after she dumped you for the trillionth time
I was cleary your replacement girl as well
I hate to say this, but im not completly over you
You had me there, when you said i was everything you ever wanted
Its hard to believe what you tell me nowadays
Either there lies or not
Coming from the person who hurt me
Whats left are the pieces of my heart you rippled from my chest & broke
You were the only guy i fell so hard for,
I thought you were different
But i was wrong, your just like any other guy
For weeks ive been trying to satisfy your heart, & win you back
But no, shes there playing you for the tenth time
Thats not love, thats just pretending to be loved.
Right now, im living in a box of depression & a web of lies
I wanan runaway from this
But thats just going to prove that im weak & soft
Im the type of person who doesnt give up,
But its been almost 2 and a half months down from when we ended it
And im still hurt & torned
I hope your 'ex' is happy, that shes got what she wants
And that is you,
Shes got you on lockdown,
She doesnt know what "love" is, never did
Sorry but i need to let this all out
Cant keep this inside of me anymore
Shes driving me crazy,
Everyone is nowadays.
I know being friends with you is best
But everytime im with you, I think about "us" over the summer
I dont know how to act around you anymore
Im afraid that if i accidently flirt with you, things will twist
Im afraid that if i dont talk, you might think somethings wrong
Im afraid that if i close my eyes, i reminice everything
Im afraid that if i talk, you think im annoying
Im afraid that if im with you, i might do something stupid
Im afraid that when im not with you, you flirt with her Or others
Im afraid that if i leave, you'd move on to her Or some next chick
& im afraid that if you leave, you will forget about me & what we had
Stupid to say, but im soft when it comes to these things
Its not infatuation its love.
I thought i was over you, but i was wrong
What we had, was true
You & I are drifting away slowly
Going out seperate ways
And im worried what you'd do to your heart
Things are different now,
I feel like im trying to hard, for nothing
I just simply miss you, so much
and i mean it
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love is overrated.
shortay: you're my drug .
greengiant: you're my cure .
^ you were the reason why i smile everyday
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NOVEMBER13
TGIF. Erica & I reached Angelica's Base right after school to chill. We had the whole house to ourselves. Tito Jovey ordered 3 boxes of pizza, we ate everything drank 5 cans of coke. Tito Jovey & Tita Amy bought us Burger King aswell LOL. Oh maaaaaan, major gain of weight right thar! :) Oh well, we're still growing who gives ! We watched Paranormal Activity AGAIN lol - overall i watched that movie 4 times in total already, nbd! - Angelica & Erica were pretty scared lol, they sheltered themselves with 5 million pillows lol.Then we watched Jennifer's Body - GROOSS DISTURBING MOVIE, hoooooooooooly and it was soo stupid!. Last but not least, we watched Orphane.
- erica & i cam-d with aj santiago
- erica & i tried caming with paul, jordan, & brian
- too much jokes & laughing
- all three of us cam-whored
- five cans of coke each
- three boxes of pizza
- three scary movies
- burger king afterwards
- FRIDAY THE 13 TODAY, ouuuu scary ? AHA
NOVEMBER14
- went to torontoooo for a bit
- we ate at congee star at don mills
- picked up my lola at don mills
- PACQUIAO FTW. with the rest of the FAMBAMM @ my house!
NOVEMBER15
- Went to StMARTINS for my sister's Confrimation Enrolement @ 12
- Went to the mall
- URBAN BEHAVIOUR is where its at ! 50 PERCENT off of everything
- spent over 400 dollars at UB just for me, lil sis & mom
- bought 2 jackets, one black shawl & 3 scarfs- buy tickets @ costco in etobicoke
- met up with my tita jeanette & uncle arnel & tito rhoel @ CineplexOdean
- watched 2012 with fambam, uncles & aunt & my uncle's friend
- ^ excellent movie (:
- we ALL reached tdot to eat at this chinese restaurent @ seven
- ^ DELICIOUS LOBSTAR xD
- phoned with "him" (:
NOVEMBER16
- cancelled volleyball tryouts, so i was told
- religion retreat, come in civies
- went to scarborough for the retreat
- stayed with them lovers - sean+erin+ashley :)
- prayed, danced, played games with the pip kids ! (y) (:
- phoned with "him" (y)
NOVEMBER17
- "was" supposed to go to erica's house to make a cover, fail tho.
- went home and slept, so tired
- phoned with "him" :)
NOVEMBER18
Today after school, we watched the junoir girl's bball game! Watched the game with, Ac, Erin, Mark G, Jason, Sean, Fatima, Rui, Q, Julius & Jan. Justin tried to chop me & Erin LOL, niners these days!
j: what you saying?
a: nun really you?
j: wanna have some fun?
a: Soorrrry, but i dont go for niner's boys like you.
j: You went after " ", he's so fkn ugly, i wanna beat the shyt outa him!
a: yeah well he screwed things up.
HAHAH EXPOSED RIGHT THAR! Anyways, we lost againest the other school by a point i think?. I gave Erin a ride home. Stupid child, gave my dad the wrong directions and we went around the neighbourhood LMAO, instead of left she says right aha . And she blames it all on me -.- AHAH LOVE YOU ERIN ! Once i got home, i slept in. Then we picked up my mom from downtown at seven. Phoned with Rui at 12:06am midnight till One because he's mom picked up LOL, awwww.
NOVEMBER19
CIVIES Day. Same ol' attended school. Started off a new unit in science class, which is biology. Im thinking of taking biology in grade eleven. Its pretty easy, no equations required just knowledge & thinking, Oh & we get to disect things LOL omg voimit right there. Anyways, I believe Mr.Chu LIVES ON MY STREET. Because when i was leaving to go to school, i see guy who i guess you can call my neighbour, altho he lives across my house. He was leaving although he went to put the recycling bin outside and went inside his car. HE LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE HIM OMG, LOL i needa find out if it is him, because funny thing is that i saw him at McDonalds like a few weeks ago across my house too. Coinisidense, no? AHH i needa find out. Anyways, for the rest of the day, we cam-whored - Erica Liezl & I. Pretty funnnnnny actually. The pictures turned out horrible, height differences! *sadface* IM SO SHORT, YO!. Rui's right, im a shorty ! ): Blahblahblahblah whatever (: Anyways, today we had VbAll TRYOUTS. Hannah, Erin & I tried out, since we msised the other one - While Erica & Liezl missioned to Liezl's cousins house to get the pasta ! lol. Volleyball tryouts was a killa! In the beginning it was alright, i was actually pumped & hoping to make the vball team. but once we played a scrimmage, I noticed i had no chance in making the team. Too many competitive ppl - they were all pretty good. At this point, i hope i dont make it now ! LMAO change of minds ! After the tryouts, we ddnt bother changing so we went to met up erica & liezl at liezl's house in our sweats. We were damped while it was POURING outside. good thing we ddnt get sick. NOTE2SELF: GET USE TO EATING WITH HANNAH & LIEZL OMFG, LIVE @ LIEZL'S BASE, too much laughing, puking, screaming, videos, pictures, MORE LAUGHING aha. I love them girls x a million. Afterwards a gave erin a ride home again LOL, this time she ACTUALLY got the directions right ! xD Once i got home, i rested for a bit, then Rui called me at ten, talked till eleven. We were afraid that his mom will pick up like last time lol so yeah.
NOVEMBER20
Today i couldnt even get up from bed. I was in pain because of vball yesturday hoooooly. Next time i have to stretch before i play. I keep forgetting, fail. Once i got to school i met up with Rui at my locker and went with our plan. He & I both skipped first period to getaway and think about our problems. aha first we went to his locker, then guess where we stayed afterwards? -.-" We went to the libarary instead of reaching the creek lol. So the entire first period, Rui & I were on the computers listening to music & surfing thro the net. Until we met Ryan Ching. He helped us get into facebook & youtube LOL, thank you very much! So while we were on fb, Rui & I kept msging each other on facebook, WHILE we were RIGHT beside each other. Other then fb, we went on blogspot, youtube & stalked one another on google 3D direction thing. aha funny. While first pd ended, We went to my locker then to third floor to Anthony's Locker. Then Rui & I went to the attendence office to sign in, and we made some stupid excuse saying that we slept in and jst got to school aha. So we both went to second period, spanish class was boring, copied more notes down, math class was lame we did our CAT and the other half we went to the messany hall and played a math game with some music. Lunch, ChristineG, Erica, Julia Irenea & I went to Zita's Then bakery to have lunch. Fourth, i went to my science class to ask my teacher if i can have my report cards, and told her why i ddnt show up for class. I slept in aha . Afterwards i went straight to my religion class, listened to a lesson about media and stuff then did a mini group assingment, Afterwards, Lexxie, Erin, Sheldon, Ashley, Michael Tyler & I just chilled & talked about ppl & sex & drinking & parties lossing virginity and other crap aha. After school, i went to pick up sis from david's, went to TDOT straight, then picked up my mom from Woman's College then Don Mills for my ortho. They changed my braces with chains now. Flippin kills like hell urgh. Then we went to Costco in etobicoke to eat while it was traffic. AFTERWARDS.... HOME . Before going to bed Roooi calls me. We talked for awhile and while we were falling asleep together , he & i said 'goodnight' to each other and ended it (: END OF THE DAY!
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it never seems to change when it comes to You & Me
Dear Cupid,
For weeks ive been healing slowly
I thought i was moving on with my life
Turns out im still whipped & not yet completly over you
I thought i could forget what you & i did together & shared over the summer
You & I were going to make it official before school started
Then it hit me, you dropped "us"
You gaved up, and let her be in control of you again
I hate seeing you get hurt
Because either way, "i will still care & love you"
I didnt get the chance to say those three important words to you
Until now, im still thinking about all those time we shared
Whenever i close my eyes, i see "us"
Being happy, smiling, being ..together ..
Although that doesnt exist anymore
Those were "our" dreams, now its all nightmares to me
Im afraid what your going to do to your heart next,
and its so obvious ..
But what can i do to make you see that shes not your type or worth your time?
My mind says to let go, but my heart says not so ...
You know she hurts you constantly, & Yet you still go after her
over and over again
I regret knowing you, that way i dont have to face this over & over again
Knowing you is too much
I cant handle the emotions & feelings i have for you
Whats left, is the pieces of my heart that you ripped & broke
Until now, im figuring out whats love like?
Because No One knows the tru meaning of love,
In the beginning i thought you did, but i was wrong
I simply miss the smiles we shared,
the laughter,
the jokes,
the long phone calls till sunrise,
falling asleep together,
cuddling,
everything ...
I wish upon a star at 11:11 that maybe one day,
you will soon realize what you've done
and just maybe, you will come around and make it right once again
But thats all hope
You've cheered my heart, and made me smile.
You've shown me love, i'd never known.
Altho the love i felt was never shown
They say i should take it easy on love and slow down my heart rate
We said we had each other,
side by side
always there for one another
thro whatever
thro thick & thin
thro drama thro breakups
once again "we" said we had each other
unconditional love,
this thing that we call love is just illusions of the mind,
all the smiles that we have shared is a story to be told
But now i understand .. that love is pain
Do you remember our eight hour phonecall till sunrise ?
Do you remember what we said?
" .. your my drug .."
" and allyson, your my cure .."
If only i can erase the past .. then i would .
This letter can go on forever,
The rest remains in our memories
But i do have one thing to say & one thing left for you
Its a secret, Are you ready for it? Did you know you were the only guy i fell so hard for ? ♥
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im stuck in the middle with you
I was the one you can run into When tears would fall from what she do Who knew that friends would become lovers Going crazy giving my all but getting half of you
I'm not half the woman so tell me what to do Never gonna let you go Cause you know our love was true; Im stuck in the middle with you
- jay sean
Today i was extremely tired & sleepy. I didnt have enough energy to do any work for the entire day. Instead, i kept my head down & rested on the desk. Im not feeling so well since yesturday. Nooo , i dont have swine flu or SWAG FLU ( LMFAOO AC ). I wanted to leave school during second period, although i couldnt because of the volleyball tryouts. Oh yeah ! And turns out, the vball tryouts was cancelled & we had to meet in Rm 112 to sign up instead. Ive been asked if i was high or bate or whatever by the boyz in math class, like wtf .. I was simply tired & exhausted -.-". Uggggh, i kept quiet the entire day, simply because i had no energy. Reason : Because im sick and have a high fever and because of last night. Last night i decided to go to bed at ten, so i did, but i got a call from roooi at eleven. Talked till two because he & i fell asleep whle chatting about things in life. My phone and his was on till five in the morning, omg. Lol to that. I nearly got booked by my dad too, ahh whatever. Anyways,today after school, Erica, Erin, James, Rui & I went to the lecture hall & Rm 112. Just for the meetups for vball & snowboarding. We loafted while waiting for Erin. Then James left. So it was just us three. Rui kept asking me if i wanted to walk with him to his cousins house, i wouldve but im sick and i didnt wanna get worse PLUS if i did id have to walk all the way to Britannia. Aha forget that Buddy ! So Rui left, and Erica & Erin & I decided to make last minute plans to go to Taco Bell. Turns out Taco Bell was close to Rui's cousins house, i believe?, Maaan, i shouldve just walked with him there. But rui was far gone, so Erica & Erin & I missioned to the busstop and waited there for 35 minutes i believe. Went to taco Bell & bussed back to Joooes to get picked up by my uncle. Once i got home, i slept for a good three hours. Woke up and watched SYTYCD with my uncle & i took my medication aswell (y) . Hopefully tomorrow, will be a better day for me ... Au reviour Looooooosa's ;)
NOVEMBER909MONDAY
- school
- bused home with erica & rjay
- reached erica's base for a few mins
- reached rjay's base for a few hrs
- reached mcd's with them
- walked home at five-six, split up went to erica's gp base & have my dad pick me up
NOVEMBER1009TUESDAY
- school fcourse
- vball signup
- loaft for a bit with the girls & james&rui
- split up & reach tacobell
- buss back to joes & have my uncle pick me up
- anicole
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but anyway I think you're bionic and i don't think youre beautiful i think your beyond it
I'm soo tired from last night, three-way called with Erin & Ashley. Originally supposed to be with Erin & Ac lol. Although he aint picking up his phone. So basically today i reached tdot . Passed by my condo. Its soo flippin tall. The exterior is done & now their working on the interior ! CANT WAIT. Then afterwards i went straight to pick up my momma from George Brown College. Once we reached the mississauga boundary we went to shoppers to buy some makeremover and other stuff. My tita & Cousin Regina came over. Until now there still here. Shes on the phone with her BOYFRIEND . They made it official just 10 minutes ago . I witnessed it all, so flippin cyote omg -hearts-. He's pretty chill, and got humour. He & I got one thing in common; he & i tease & makes fun of my cousin lmao. Anyways, Im strong strong as a soldier. You made me realize i can live life without you ! :) Have fun with that chick.
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" but anyway I think you're bionic and i don't think youre beautiful i think your beyond it "
so long stalkers ,
anicole & rvictoria ♥
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i got one secret that was never told ..
NOVEMBER5th, Thursday
Today same'ol, althought during first and second period i wasen't feeling so well. I had a headache and a tummyache. Although i was feeling better before second period ended. Anyways, class was boring. After school, I stayed behind with Ashley, Jason, Julius, Rui, Erin, Sebastian, Ena, Darwin, Brandon and other ppl to watch the last bball home game. The only reason why we all stayed behind was too support & cheer Katrina Medalle Aha. She pretty much dragged us to watch her play & smoke the other team. Live day @ the game. Aha too many jokes. After the game, I gave Julius, Erin & Ashley a ride home. Afterwards i went straight home and dripped dead on my bed.
NOVEMBER6th, Friday
Today was just a typical day. During science, we just had the teacher explain the 5 overheads we copied down for the past 2 days. During Spanish we watched a movie, I wanted to leave so i did for 10 mins to my locker. Bumped into Rui, Rui walked with me to my locker. Talked, like old times (y). Aha then i took his hat, he spazzes so i gave it back to him. Afterwards, i went back to spanish class to watch ZORO or howveer you spell it(: / THIRD PERIOD, Math - Chilled with the boyz during class since theirs only 3 girls in the class. We just listened to our ipods & chilled, same'old. Then LUNCH CAME, THANKGOD , i was starving. So flippin hungry i wanted to bus home to have a REAL LUNCH, FLIP FOOOD ALLLL THE WAY, aha so fob eh?. Anyways I chilled with Erica & Christine Grant for lunch. Afterwards i chilled with Narmeen, Julius & rui. Once again, i took his hat. And Kept throwing and passing it to Julius & Narmeen. Sorta like monkey in the middle, In this case, Rui's the MONKEY aha ;P Then we went back to class. RELIGION FOURTH PERIOD, soo boring we just created a crossword with 15 terms in unit three. END OF THE DAY.
ciao stalkers,
allysonnicole
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infatuation
OCTUBER30TH, Friday
Today, the girls and I all reached Erica's house for a pre-halloween chillage! Pretty fun, not gonna lie. We watched several horror movies such as, Thir13en Ghosts, Exorcist: The Beginning, Texas ChainSaw Masacre & Chuckie. We ordered chinese instead of Pizza .. MMmmmm. We Go Asian NOW. aha, corny i know eh?LOL. We recorded several videos for certain ppl on their fb wall, aha pretty funny actually. To sum it up, we simply just chilled, updated one another's lives, ect. I left erica's base @ midnight, wanted to sleepover but i had plans the next day , boooo. Overall it was a f u n day, i had since june.
OCTUBER31ST, Saturday
Today, is Pumpkin Day ;) No plans really except reach TDOT aha. I was supposed to go to my cousins boyfriends brothers Hockey Game LOL, but i sorta fell asleep because i was extrememly tired from the other day @ Ericas aha. So instead, i left mississauga to go to downtown - my second home - to chill & eat with my fam @ some chinese restaurent. I booked all these Slutty, Prostitute-like- costumes .. Pretty disturbing. Halloween in Tdot seemed LIVER than the ones in Mississauga. Oh and once i was getting ready to change to reach tdot, i see Marlon, AC, Cyril & Julius outside my house, walking by - waving their hands & smiling/laughing? - truuuue ! haha, and i was like , wtttf HEEEEY GUYS ! lol. Figures, they were gonna reach Rj's Base ; Well other than that, today was simply just any ordinary day. I got to spend more time with my fam. Phoned with Rui and fell asleep with him. Overall today was an Okay Day ♥
NOVEMBER1ST, Sunday
Whaaaaaadup November? Ayeeee, time flys by so fast now. We're half way through first semester! Well okay, so today i woke up at eight since its fallback. Me, Daddy, Grandma & my Little Sister all went to St.Martin Of Tours for church. We were asked to bring down the gifts ( down the aisle ) I messed up BIGTIME, aha . Dont ask. Its a good thing i didnt wore heels today :| So yeah, after church we all went to the cemetary to visit my Lolo. Since its All Saints Day. Prayed ect. Then afterwards we went to Mcd's to eat then went home. Pretty much my day. Oh and we went to tdot @ SEVEN too ;D
NOVEMBER2ND, Monday
Today is monday, sucha tiring day. Same ol' went to school, did work, had lunch, did more work . After school, i was getting cornered by Darwin Paule aha. Its good now that things are back to normal b/w us two . Angelica & I reached Timmies before we picked up our sibs. Then we just walked around our old BORING hood. Pretty boring day, But HEY ? Its just Monday .
NOVEMBER3RD, Tuesday
Today i had school, obviously. Science, i put the answers on the board. Spanish Class, we had a Unit Test Plus, we had to hand in our Spanish Letter. I worked so hard on that crap, and Stupid Sebastian didnt wanna help me with the translating UNLESS i buy a ticket off of him for UNITY 8-) aha. Then Math class came along, some ol' chilled with the boyz, did work .. Finished everything in class by then & we did a small presentation. And lastly, Religion .. We just loafted in class, did absolutly nothing except talk about boys, love and all with Katrina & Erin lol. After school, i bussed home with Angelica and went over to her house and watched Paranormal Activity the extended version. aha . I just love seeing her Scream her soxs off when the events started happening aha , then her sister got home & my sister came over and we all watched it till 4 15 . Anyways, @ Night Darwin calls me and i said answered although he didnt say anything back, so i hung up and he calls me again after 5 seconds and i ask him why he didnt respond from the previous call & he says He was Shy Or Scared ;) Ahaaa i find that pretty cyote, in a way LOLLL ♥
Anways i went to bed @ Ten because i was absoluty tired. So early. Then i somewhat woke up around 12: 48 for no reason, and Rui calls me. LMAO, i have no idea wtf i woke up? sucha coinsidense, no? Anways yeah , we just talked and he wanted me to sleep with him over the phone although i didnt wanna because he's mom might catch him and i dont want him getting into more trouble. So we got off at 1:45. After i got off the phone, i couldnt sleep till 2 am. Fraaaack, thank Gooddness i fell asleep BEFORE THREEEE :)
NOVEMBER4TH, Wednesday
Today i was really tired from my phone conversation with roooi. I was falling asleep in Spanish class, although my teacher said to wake up :) aha. Math class was flippin boring i wanted to skip to chill with ppl at lunch although i cant, I gotta stay focuse now. Religion was watched a movie about a young boy from Africa who didnt have a right leg so he got a prostetic leg. Pretty sad. In class i was just chilln with Katrina & Erin & Ashley, laughing at Erin because she makes the most stupidiest decisions & simply cos she THOUGHT that the fake legs you wear are ELECTRICAL, LMFAAAAAAAAAO .. Katrina & I & AShley couldn't stop laughing until 3 mins later aha. @ Lunch, i kept stealing Rui's hat & kept teasing him how he gets pissed when I take it lol and narmeen. William, my buddy, was being an asshole and kept spiting out the shell of the sunflower seed @ me, LOL. After school, i didnt get to see Darwin, although he kept texting Erin During religion about me, aha , cyote!. All the niners werent @ school today cos of the BRING YOUR KIDS TO WORK THANG. Booooo. Pretyy quiet @ Joes without them lol :)
Ciao for now,
anicole ♥
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Im stuck in the middle with you
Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete.
Until now, im still stuck in the middle with you.
My heart is burning with fire.
My mind is telling me to move on
But, my heart says i shouldnt.
I got my friends telling me your useless
I blame myself for falling for you,
We said we had each other, unconditional love
But that was just your way of making me happy - i guess
I was being played all along
You said once we're together, we'll be happier than ever
But that was a lie
You had your ex get in the way of you & me being together
You allowed her be in-control over you
Shes nothing, shes not worth it
Everyone keeps telling you that, but nothing gets through you head
I just hope you know what you got & what youve lost
Everytime i go to bed i think about you
Every morning, i find myself crying over you
With all the stuff we did & shared over the summer
I guess, maybe, i was your rebound girl after she dumped you for the trillionth time
I was cleary your replacement girl as well
I hate to say this, but im not completly over you
You had me there, when you said i was everything you ever wanted
Its hard to believe what you tell me nowadays
Either there lies or not
Coming from the person who hurt me
Whats left are the pieces of my heart you rippled from my chest & broke
You were the only guy i fell so hard for,
I thought you were different
But i was wrong, your just like any other guy
For weeks ive been trying to satisfy your heart, & win you back
But no, shes there playing you for the tenth time
Thats not love, thats just pretending to be loved.
Right now, im living in a box of depression & a web of lies
I wanan runaway from this
But thats just going to prove that im weak & soft
Im the type of person who doesnt give up,
But its been almost 2 and a half months down from when we ended it
And im still hurt & torned
I hope your 'ex' is happy, that shes got what she wants
And that is you,
Shes got you on lockdown,
She doesnt know what "love" is, never did
Sorry but i need to let this all out
Cant keep this inside of me anymore
Shes driving me crazy,
Everyone is nowadays.
I know being friends with you is best
But everytime im with you, I think about "us" over the summer
I dont know how to act around you anymore
Im afraid that if i accidently flirt with you, things will twist
Im afraid that if i dont talk, you might think somethings wrong
Im afraid that if i close my eyes, i reminice everything
Im afraid that if i talk, you think im annoying
Im afraid that if im with you, i might do something stupid
Im afraid that when im not with you, you flirt with her Or others
Im afraid that if i leave, you'd move on to her Or some next chick
& im afraid that if you leave, you will forget about me & what we had
Stupid to say, but im soft when it comes to these things
Its not infatuation its love.
I thought i was over you, but i was wrong
What we had, was true
You & I are drifting away slowly
Going out seperate ways
And im worried what you'd do to your heart
Things are different now,
I feel like im trying to hard, for nothing
I just simply miss you, so much
and i mean it
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love is overrated.
shortay: you're my drug .
greengiant: you're my cure .
^ you were the reason why i smile everyday
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NOVEMBER13
TGIF. Erica & I reached Angelica's Base right after school to chill. We had the whole house to ourselves. Tito Jovey ordered 3 boxes of pizza, we ate everything drank 5 cans of coke. Tito Jovey & Tita Amy bought us Burger King aswell LOL. Oh maaaaaan, major gain of weight right thar! :) Oh well, we're still growing who gives ! We watched Paranormal Activity AGAIN lol - overall i watched that movie 4 times in total already, nbd! - Angelica & Erica were pretty scared lol, they sheltered themselves with 5 million pillows lol.Then we watched Jennifer's Body - GROOSS DISTURBING MOVIE, hoooooooooooly and it was soo stupid!. Last but not least, we watched Orphane.
- erica & i cam-d with aj santiago
- erica & i tried caming with paul, jordan, & brian
- too much jokes & laughing
- all three of us cam-whored
- five cans of coke each
- three boxes of pizza
- three scary movies
- burger king afterwards
- FRIDAY THE 13 TODAY, ouuuu scary ? AHA
NOVEMBER14
- went to torontoooo for a bit
- we ate at congee star at don mills
- picked up my lola at don mills
- PACQUIAO FTW. with the rest of the FAMBAMM @ my house!
NOVEMBER15
- Went to StMARTINS for my sister's Confrimation Enrolement @ 12
- Went to the mall
- URBAN BEHAVIOUR is where its at ! 50 PERCENT off of everything
- spent over 400 dollars at UB just for me, lil sis & mom
- bought 2 jackets, one black shawl & 3 scarfs- buy tickets @ costco in etobicoke
- met up with my tita jeanette & uncle arnel & tito rhoel @ CineplexOdean
- watched 2012 with fambam, uncles & aunt & my uncle's friend
- ^ excellent movie (:
- we ALL reached tdot to eat at this chinese restaurent @ seven
- ^ DELICIOUS LOBSTAR xD
- phoned with "him" (:
NOVEMBER16
- cancelled volleyball tryouts, so i was told
- religion retreat, come in civies
- went to scarborough for the retreat
- stayed with them lovers - sean+erin+ashley :)
- prayed, danced, played games with the pip kids ! (y) (:
- phoned with "him" (y)
NOVEMBER17
- "was" supposed to go to erica's house to make a cover, fail tho.
- went home and slept, so tired
- phoned with "him" :)
NOVEMBER18
Today after school, we watched the junoir girl's bball game! Watched the game with, Ac, Erin, Mark G, Jason, Sean, Fatima, Rui, Q, Julius & Jan. Justin tried to chop me & Erin LOL, niners these days!
j: what you saying?
a: nun really you?
j: wanna have some fun?
a: Soorrrry, but i dont go for niner's boys like you.
j: You went after " ", he's so fkn ugly, i wanna beat the shyt outa him!
a: yeah well he screwed things up.
HAHAH EXPOSED RIGHT THAR! Anyways, we lost againest the other school by a point i think?. I gave Erin a ride home. Stupid child, gave my dad the wrong directions and we went around the neighbourhood LMAO, instead of left she says right aha . And she blames it all on me -.- AHAH LOVE YOU ERIN ! Once i got home, i slept in. Then we picked up my mom from downtown at seven. Phoned with Rui at 12:06am midnight till One because he's mom picked up LOL, awwww.
NOVEMBER19
CIVIES Day. Same ol' attended school. Started off a new unit in science class, which is biology. Im thinking of taking biology in grade eleven. Its pretty easy, no equations required just knowledge & thinking, Oh & we get to disect things LOL omg voimit right there. Anyways, I believe Mr.Chu LIVES ON MY STREET. Because when i was leaving to go to school, i see guy who i guess you can call my neighbour, altho he lives across my house. He was leaving although he went to put the recycling bin outside and went inside his car. HE LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE HIM OMG, LOL i needa find out if it is him, because funny thing is that i saw him at McDonalds like a few weeks ago across my house too. Coinisidense, no? AHH i needa find out. Anyways, for the rest of the day, we cam-whored - Erica Liezl & I. Pretty funnnnnny actually. The pictures turned out horrible, height differences! *sadface* IM SO SHORT, YO!. Rui's right, im a shorty ! ): Blahblahblahblah whatever (: Anyways, today we had VbAll TRYOUTS. Hannah, Erin & I tried out, since we msised the other one - While Erica & Liezl missioned to Liezl's cousins house to get the pasta ! lol. Volleyball tryouts was a killa! In the beginning it was alright, i was actually pumped & hoping to make the vball team. but once we played a scrimmage, I noticed i had no chance in making the team. Too many competitive ppl - they were all pretty good. At this point, i hope i dont make it now ! LMAO change of minds ! After the tryouts, we ddnt bother changing so we went to met up erica & liezl at liezl's house in our sweats. We were damped while it was POURING outside. good thing we ddnt get sick. NOTE2SELF: GET USE TO EATING WITH HANNAH & LIEZL OMFG, LIVE @ LIEZL'S BASE, too much laughing, puking, screaming, videos, pictures, MORE LAUGHING aha. I love them girls x a million. Afterwards a gave erin a ride home again LOL, this time she ACTUALLY got the directions right ! xD Once i got home, i rested for a bit, then Rui called me at ten, talked till eleven. We were afraid that his mom will pick up like last time lol so yeah.
NOVEMBER20
Today i couldnt even get up from bed. I was in pain because of vball yesturday hoooooly. Next time i have to stretch before i play. I keep forgetting, fail. Once i got to school i met up with Rui at my locker and went with our plan. He & I both skipped first period to getaway and think about our problems. aha first we went to his locker, then guess where we stayed afterwards? -.-" We went to the libarary instead of reaching the creek lol. So the entire first period, Rui & I were on the computers listening to music & surfing thro the net. Until we met Ryan Ching. He helped us get into facebook & youtube LOL, thank you very much! So while we were on fb, Rui & I kept msging each other on facebook, WHILE we were RIGHT beside each other. Other then fb, we went on blogspot, youtube & stalked one another on google 3D direction thing. aha funny. While first pd ended, We went to my locker then to third floor to Anthony's Locker. Then Rui & I went to the attendence office to sign in, and we made some stupid excuse saying that we slept in and jst got to school aha. So we both went to second period, spanish class was boring, copied more notes down, math class was lame we did our CAT and the other half we went to the messany hall and played a math game with some music. Lunch, ChristineG, Erica, Julia Irenea & I went to Zita's Then bakery to have lunch. Fourth, i went to my science class to ask my teacher if i can have my report cards, and told her why i ddnt show up for class. I slept in aha . Afterwards i went straight to my religion class, listened to a lesson about media and stuff then did a mini group assingment, Afterwards, Lexxie, Erin, Sheldon, Ashley, Michael Tyler & I just chilled & talked about ppl & sex & drinking & parties lossing virginity and other crap aha. After school, i went to pick up sis from david's, went to TDOT straight, then picked up my mom from Woman's College then Don Mills for my ortho. They changed my braces with chains now. Flippin kills like hell urgh. Then we went to Costco in etobicoke to eat while it was traffic. AFTERWARDS.... HOME . Before going to bed Roooi calls me. We talked for awhile and while we were falling asleep together , he & i said 'goodnight' to each other and ended it (: END OF THE DAY!
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it never seems to change when it comes to You & Me
Dear Cupid,
For weeks ive been healing slowly
I thought i was moving on with my life
Turns out im still whipped & not yet completly over you
I thought i could forget what you & i did together & shared over the summer
You & I were going to make it official before school started
Then it hit me, you dropped "us"
You gaved up, and let her be in control of you again
I hate seeing you get hurt
Because either way, "i will still care & love you"
I didnt get the chance to say those three important words to you
Until now, im still thinking about all those time we shared
Whenever i close my eyes, i see "us"
Being happy, smiling, being ..together ..
Although that doesnt exist anymore
Those were "our" dreams, now its all nightmares to me
Im afraid what your going to do to your heart next,
and its so obvious ..
But what can i do to make you see that shes not your type or worth your time?
My mind says to let go, but my heart says not so ...
You know she hurts you constantly, & Yet you still go after her
over and over again
I regret knowing you, that way i dont have to face this over & over again
Knowing you is too much
I cant handle the emotions & feelings i have for you
Whats left, is the pieces of my heart that you ripped & broke
Until now, im figuring out whats love like?
Because No One knows the tru meaning of love,
In the beginning i thought you did, but i was wrong
I simply miss the smiles we shared,
the laughter,
the jokes,
the long phone calls till sunrise,
falling asleep together,
cuddling,
everything ...
I wish upon a star at 11:11 that maybe one day,
you will soon realize what you've done
and just maybe, you will come around and make it right once again
But thats all hope
You've cheered my heart, and made me smile.
You've shown me love, i'd never known.
Altho the love i felt was never shown
They say i should take it easy on love and slow down my heart rate
We said we had each other,
side by side
always there for one another
thro whatever
thro thick & thin
thro drama thro breakups
once again "we" said we had each other
unconditional love,
this thing that we call love is just illusions of the mind,
all the smiles that we have shared is a story to be told
But now i understand .. that love is pain
Do you remember our eight hour phonecall till sunrise ?
Do you remember what we said?
" .. your my drug .."
" and allyson, your my cure .."
If only i can erase the past .. then i would .
This letter can go on forever,
The rest remains in our memories
But i do have one thing to say & one thing left for you
Its a secret, Are you ready for it? Did you know you were the only guy i fell so hard for ? ♥
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im stuck in the middle with you
I was the one you can run into When tears would fall from what she do Who knew that friends would become lovers Going crazy giving my all but getting half of you
I'm not half the woman so tell me what to do Never gonna let you go Cause you know our love was true; Im stuck in the middle with you
- jay sean
Today i was extremely tired & sleepy. I didnt have enough energy to do any work for the entire day. Instead, i kept my head down & rested on the desk. Im not feeling so well since yesturday. Nooo , i dont have swine flu or SWAG FLU ( LMFAOO AC ). I wanted to leave school during second period, although i couldnt because of the volleyball tryouts. Oh yeah ! And turns out, the vball tryouts was cancelled & we had to meet in Rm 112 to sign up instead. Ive been asked if i was high or bate or whatever by the boyz in math class, like wtf .. I was simply tired & exhausted -.-". Uggggh, i kept quiet the entire day, simply because i had no energy. Reason : Because im sick and have a high fever and because of last night. Last night i decided to go to bed at ten, so i did, but i got a call from roooi at eleven. Talked till two because he & i fell asleep whle chatting about things in life. My phone and his was on till five in the morning, omg. Lol to that. I nearly got booked by my dad too, ahh whatever. Anyways,today after school, Erica, Erin, James, Rui & I went to the lecture hall & Rm 112. Just for the meetups for vball & snowboarding. We loafted while waiting for Erin. Then James left. So it was just us three. Rui kept asking me if i wanted to walk with him to his cousins house, i wouldve but im sick and i didnt wanna get worse PLUS if i did id have to walk all the way to Britannia. Aha forget that Buddy ! So Rui left, and Erica & Erin & I decided to make last minute plans to go to Taco Bell. Turns out Taco Bell was close to Rui's cousins house, i believe?, Maaan, i shouldve just walked with him there. But rui was far gone, so Erica & Erin & I missioned to the busstop and waited there for 35 minutes i believe. Went to taco Bell & bussed back to Joooes to get picked up by my uncle. Once i got home, i slept for a good three hours. Woke up and watched SYTYCD with my uncle & i took my medication aswell (y) . Hopefully tomorrow, will be a better day for me ... Au reviour Looooooosa's ;)
NOVEMBER909MONDAY
- school
- bused home with erica & rjay
- reached erica's base for a few mins
- reached rjay's base for a few hrs
- reached mcd's with them
- walked home at five-six, split up went to erica's gp base & have my dad pick me up
NOVEMBER1009TUESDAY
- school fcourse
- vball signup
- loaft for a bit with the girls & james&rui
- split up & reach tacobell
- buss back to joes & have my uncle pick me up
- anicole
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but anyway I think you're bionic and i don't think youre beautiful i think your beyond it
I'm soo tired from last night, three-way called with Erin & Ashley. Originally supposed to be with Erin & Ac lol. Although he aint picking up his phone. So basically today i reached tdot . Passed by my condo. Its soo flippin tall. The exterior is done & now their working on the interior ! CANT WAIT. Then afterwards i went straight to pick up my momma from George Brown College. Once we reached the mississauga boundary we went to shoppers to buy some makeremover and other stuff. My tita & Cousin Regina came over. Until now there still here. Shes on the phone with her BOYFRIEND . They made it official just 10 minutes ago . I witnessed it all, so flippin cyote omg -hearts-. He's pretty chill, and got humour. He & I got one thing in common; he & i tease & makes fun of my cousin lmao. Anyways, Im strong strong as a soldier. You made me realize i can live life without you ! :) Have fun with that chick.
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" but anyway I think you're bionic and i don't think youre beautiful i think your beyond it "
so long stalkers ,
anicole & rvictoria ♥
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i got one secret that was never told ..
NOVEMBER5th, Thursday
Today same'ol, althought during first and second period i wasen't feeling so well. I had a headache and a tummyache. Although i was feeling better before second period ended. Anyways, class was boring. After school, I stayed behind with Ashley, Jason, Julius, Rui, Erin, Sebastian, Ena, Darwin, Brandon and other ppl to watch the last bball home game. The only reason why we all stayed behind was too support & cheer Katrina Medalle Aha. She pretty much dragged us to watch her play & smoke the other team. Live day @ the game. Aha too many jokes. After the game, I gave Julius, Erin & Ashley a ride home. Afterwards i went straight home and dripped dead on my bed.
NOVEMBER6th, Friday
Today was just a typical day. During science, we just had the teacher explain the 5 overheads we copied down for the past 2 days. During Spanish we watched a movie, I wanted to leave so i did for 10 mins to my locker. Bumped into Rui, Rui walked with me to my locker. Talked, like old times (y). Aha then i took his hat, he spazzes so i gave it back to him. Afterwards, i went back to spanish class to watch ZORO or howveer you spell it(: / THIRD PERIOD, Math - Chilled with the boyz during class since theirs only 3 girls in the class. We just listened to our ipods & chilled, same'old. Then LUNCH CAME, THANKGOD , i was starving. So flippin hungry i wanted to bus home to have a REAL LUNCH, FLIP FOOOD ALLLL THE WAY, aha so fob eh?. Anyways I chilled with Erica & Christine Grant for lunch. Afterwards i chilled with Narmeen, Julius & rui. Once again, i took his hat. And Kept throwing and passing it to Julius & Narmeen. Sorta like monkey in the middle, In this case, Rui's the MONKEY aha ;P Then we went back to class. RELIGION FOURTH PERIOD, soo boring we just created a crossword with 15 terms in unit three. END OF THE DAY.
ciao stalkers,
allysonnicole
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OCTUBER30TH, Friday
Today, the girls and I all reached Erica's house for a pre-halloween chillage! Pretty fun, not gonna lie. We watched several horror movies such as, Thir13en Ghosts, Exorcist: The Beginning, Texas ChainSaw Masacre & Chuckie. We ordered chinese instead of Pizza .. MMmmmm. We Go Asian NOW. aha, corny i know eh?LOL. We recorded several videos for certain ppl on their fb wall, aha pretty funny actually. To sum it up, we simply just chilled, updated one another's lives, ect. I left erica's base @ midnight, wanted to sleepover but i had plans the next day , boooo. Overall it was a f u n day, i had since june.
OCTUBER31ST, Saturday
Today, is Pumpkin Day ;) No plans really except reach TDOT aha. I was supposed to go to my cousins boyfriends brothers Hockey Game LOL, but i sorta fell asleep because i was extrememly tired from the other day @ Ericas aha. So instead, i left mississauga to go to downtown - my second home - to chill & eat with my fam @ some chinese restaurent. I booked all these Slutty, Prostitute-like- costumes .. Pretty disturbing. Halloween in Tdot seemed LIVER than the ones in Mississauga. Oh and once i was getting ready to change to reach tdot, i see Marlon, AC, Cyril & Julius outside my house, walking by - waving their hands & smiling/laughing? - truuuue ! haha, and i was like , wtttf HEEEEY GUYS ! lol. Figures, they were gonna reach Rj's Base ; Well other than that, today was simply just any ordinary day. I got to spend more time with my fam. Phoned with Rui and fell asleep with him. Overall today was an Okay Day ♥
NOVEMBER1ST, Sunday
Whaaaaaadup November? Ayeeee, time flys by so fast now. We're half way through first semester! Well okay, so today i woke up at eight since its fallback. Me, Daddy, Grandma & my Little Sister all went to St.Martin Of Tours for church. We were asked to bring down the gifts ( down the aisle ) I messed up BIGTIME, aha . Dont ask. Its a good thing i didnt wore heels today :| So yeah, after church we all went to the cemetary to visit my Lolo. Since its All Saints Day. Prayed ect. Then afterwards we went to Mcd's to eat then went home. Pretty much my day. Oh and we went to tdot @ SEVEN too ;D
NOVEMBER2ND, Monday
Today is monday, sucha tiring day. Same ol' went to school, did work, had lunch, did more work . After school, i was getting cornered by Darwin Paule aha. Its good now that things are back to normal b/w us two . Angelica & I reached Timmies before we picked up our sibs. Then we just walked around our old BORING hood. Pretty boring day, But HEY ? Its just Monday .
NOVEMBER3RD, Tuesday
Today i had school, obviously. Science, i put the answers on the board. Spanish Class, we had a Unit Test Plus, we had to hand in our Spanish Letter. I worked so hard on that crap, and Stupid Sebastian didnt wanna help me with the translating UNLESS i buy a ticket off of him for UNITY 8-) aha. Then Math class came along, some ol' chilled with the boyz, did work .. Finished everything in class by then & we did a small presentation. And lastly, Religion .. We just loafted in class, did absolutly nothing except talk about boys, love and all with Katrina & Erin lol. After school, i bussed home with Angelica and went over to her house and watched Paranormal Activity the extended version. aha . I just love seeing her Scream her soxs off when the events started happening aha , then her sister got home & my sister came over and we all watched it till 4 15 . Anyways, @ Night Darwin calls me and i said answered although he didnt say anything back, so i hung up and he calls me again after 5 seconds and i ask him why he didnt respond from the previous call & he says He was Shy Or Scared ;) Ahaaa i find that pretty cyote, in a way LOLLL ♥
Anways i went to bed @ Ten because i was absoluty tired. So early. Then i somewhat woke up around 12: 48 for no reason, and Rui calls me. LMAO, i have no idea wtf i woke up? sucha coinsidense, no? Anways yeah , we just talked and he wanted me to sleep with him over the phone although i didnt wanna because he's mom might catch him and i dont want him getting into more trouble. So we got off at 1:45. After i got off the phone, i couldnt sleep till 2 am. Fraaaack, thank Gooddness i fell asleep BEFORE THREEEE :)
NOVEMBER4TH, Wednesday
Today i was really tired from my phone conversation with roooi. I was falling asleep in Spanish class, although my teacher said to wake up :) aha. Math class was flippin boring i wanted to skip to chill with ppl at lunch although i cant, I gotta stay focuse now. Religion was watched a movie about a young boy from Africa who didnt have a right leg so he got a prostetic leg. Pretty sad. In class i was just chilln with Katrina & Erin & Ashley, laughing at Erin because she makes the most stupidiest decisions & simply cos she THOUGHT that the fake legs you wear are ELECTRICAL, LMFAAAAAAAAAO .. Katrina & I & AShley couldn't stop laughing until 3 mins later aha. @ Lunch, i kept stealing Rui's hat & kept teasing him how he gets pissed when I take it lol and narmeen. William, my buddy, was being an asshole and kept spiting out the shell of the sunflower seed @ me, LOL. After school, i didnt get to see Darwin, although he kept texting Erin During religion about me, aha , cyote!. All the niners werent @ school today cos of the BRING YOUR KIDS TO WORK THANG. Booooo. Pretyy quiet @ Joes without them lol :)
Ciao for now,
anicole ♥
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O2-O5:Roadtrip to Jersey Shore & Washington DC!
O5: Happy '16th' Birthday to Moi (:
O6 or 13: Ladies coming over
14: Binanogoun Family Reunion!
24: Sleepover at Erks' House with the Ladies
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Ashley Romero
Nelly Marticorena
Louisa Gavino
Sebastian Pulgarin
Ryan Pacheco
Anjelica Alba
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Ron Rivera
Jordan M.Santos
Julius Nisperos
Erin Rosales, Erica Almonte, Hannah Andres, Liezl Meijia, Gabby Boetang, Angelica Alberto, Irenea Flores
William Rodriguez
Chrissy Serrano
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My familia and my selected fews stands by me through thick and thin. NinetyNine.FIVE% focused in school, you can say that im a hardworker or nerd :)
My trust is l i m i t e d due to all the lies ive been told. I'm trustworthy, simple and understanding. Still unsatisfied with his decision/choice - though im slowly
recovering and moving on. I smile solo now - still learning. I thank GOD for everything, he's my hero. Through every mistake ive been through, ive slowly learned from them
and moved on with my life. BIG UPS to all my haters ♥
lifenotes:
•learn how to smile .. again
•move on
•stay focused at all times
•don't let "him" be in-control of your life again
•stay in touch with selected fews♥
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