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is unnecessary for a teenage girl.
it's all about your familia & your boys & girls, ydig?

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Flushed in Memories

"Im drowning .. with your lies"

Im alittle lazy to jot down what happened for the past few days. Too many things happened within a week. Its a new year, time to 'move on', change - to being a fully grown mature lady. Fix my heart, put a bandage on it - from leaking. Focuse on school - and receive that honour roll. And plan my future as of now. Oh man, i already made an appointment with my guidance counsellor for that grade eleven course selection, and im so stressed for that. My brain has been ON THAT stuff, for weeks. Oh my gosh , But i know what im taking, just got to make sure its right with my guidance counsellor/academic counsellor, because they know best. Urgh. School's a pain in the asscrack.

Things i want to say to you,
I hate that i have to deal with this now, four months down and we're still argueing until now. You tell me to tell you all my 'untold feelings' (referring to you), and its hard, knowing that your JUST collecting it all, and you dont even have the answers to any of my questions .. So why bother? Right? Ughh, i simply JUST DONT KNOW what to do anymore. You never tell me what you feel about me or this. Its messing up my mind lately, Im slacking off of school, being disrespectful to my parents - which i know is extrememly wrong. Always on the phone with ppl late at night, JUST talking about you and what youve done. I hate what the fact that im changing. This is not me, i should know better. I know its stupid to think that i fell for you, out of all the other boys. But i followed me heart, and look where it lead me. Its a new year, and i need to 'move on' but it just seems that i cant. You were the real deal for me, and now i gotta cope with this. Knowing you was my biggest regret. I was so dumb to have you by my side, when you said you will always be there for me - even if were friends or more. I guess, thats another lie of yours. So tell me, What you want me to do now ; I really need to know. I always wanted someone like you to be there by my side thro everything in life, guess you cant be anymore ... I was just a part of your list
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In case your wondering, i dont hate you, and hate what you've become ...